._. yep... they always are...
Person: Tkoold, do something about your life if you want change so bad
Tkoold: I'll try!
Person: >.> sure...
*3 weeks later*
Tkoold: My life sucks!!
Ish the same story, time and time again. Tkoold, are you even jogging still? Not to be cruel or anything, but I doubt you are, and that again shows how you are unwillful to put any effort forward to create any kind of change.
In a way, I think you have grown attached to your self pity. If you could not complain about your life, what else would you have left to talk about? This lonelyness is all you've known, and so you are in a way comforted by it and fear any kind of change, though the outcome is appealing.
I sorta think you don't have a girl, simply because, internally, you aren't ready for any of it.