I've been bipolar and its been crazy, too many stresses so one moment I'm happy and the next I'm fighting back tears, but I think thats because a lot of things fell onto my lap at once and I usually try to drown out the sadness with happy
With my grandmother being diagnosed with cancer, my moms alcoholism worsening, my sister, to whom hates me, coming home and treating me like dirt, struggling in school, which is really taking its toll because I've NEVER struggled in school, things just seemed to come naturally, and chemistry does not come naturally at all. Plus the teacher is pretty bad at her job, but we had a bit of a heart to heart because I've had anxiety attacks everyday for over a week in that class (another thing that I haven't had in almost a year, but came back when my sister did; sorta relapsed when i thought i was done with it, but it's not bringing me down quite yet) Plus we are struggling to pay bills, not all of them are getting paid, and we're struggling a lot... plus my dad doesnt have a job so i've been looking for a second job because my first isnt giving me enough shifts, and I've had no luck with it... o.o basically way too much happening all at once and its too crazy for me
Things could be worse though right? =3 I mean, I gots mah 4M family, and my doggy is gonna has puppies and I love me some puppies, and my family and friends are in good health, and I've been pretty healthy too! I can eat and everything! =D Plus I've been jogging and exercising and all evrey day for o.o i dont know how long but its been a while.. =D Plus as the days of junior year come to an end, I've realized I have one more year before high school is over and I have such a bright future ahead of me how can i be sad =D I'm grateful for all the great things in my life <333